Why is it we can never eat dinner at a decent time on the weekends? I am really working on getting the kids to bed earlier. I want to start getting them up earlier as they have been sleeping until 9:30 on most mornings. Sure, it sounds great. Leaves me lots of time to be with just me in the mornings but it also cuts into our day. My kids wake up slow, especially Rebecca. So, when she does not get up until 9:30 (sometimes as late as 10:00), she ends up wanting breakfast around 11:00. Well, the pribelm you say is it is almost lunch time. Zachary usually wakes up before her. He takes a nap by 1:00. Our day is just gone before we even got to get it started. Anyway, back to the weekends. Jim cooks on the weekends. He spends all day sometimes, hounding me as to what he should cook. I do not want to have to decide. That is what I do five other days of the week and it is nice to be able to have two off. Don't ask me what I want you to cook! Then he figures it out (or on the rare occasion already has an idea) yet he still never seems to start cooking until at least 6:00 putting dinner lots of times around 7:00. I want to eat early on the weekends so I feel like I have some time left to my day. Plus ECI comes on Monday so I like to have the kids to bed at a time that still leaves me time to clean up.
Uugghh!!!
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Fabulous Weekend
Ahh, back to the daily grind of my life. But befoire I get to that, I had a fabulous weekend. I attended the Women of Faith Conference here in Houston at the Toyota Center. I went to the pre-conference on Friday from 9:00 AM to 3:30 PM. I had to leave my house by 7:15. We (ladies from church) carpooled over there. The morning was filled with wonderful music and our speakers were Sheila Walsh and Dr. Henry Cloud. Wow! They were great! I had read Sheila's book "God Has A Dream For Your Life" over the summer with my church bookclub. It was a great book. Dr. Henry Cloud was someone who I had not heard of and I was thrilled to have gotten the chance to hear him speak. I can not wait to be able to get some of his books and read those. After the preconference we had until 7:00 PM to hang out. There were fuve of us. We challenged each other to heed Dr. Cloud's words and share some secrets about ourselves that we were afraid to share with others. I did not share my struggle with depression but was able to share some other things in my life. It was nice to get to know these ladies better and just to have that time to relax. We ate dinner at a nearby hotel together and then headed back to the conference.
We had a surprise performance by a great Christian singer, Mark Shultz. Wow! It was a superb performance. What a great guy her is. We also got to seee Anita Renfroe, a wonderfully funny lady, perform some of her great comedy songs. And we sang some more great music and listened to some other great speakers. We heard Patsy Clairmont, MArilyn Meberg, Thelma Wells, Sandi Patty (who sang for us), and a singing performance by Nicole Nordeman. The conference wound up Friday about 10:00 PM and we arrived back home close to 11:00. Then we met again at 7:15 AM on Saturday morning and headed back to the conference. More of the same bu t lengthier segments. All wonderful and funny.
Definitely worth going to. I hope to be able to go again. From what I understand there was about 12,000 attendees.
We had a surprise performance by a great Christian singer, Mark Shultz. Wow! It was a superb performance. What a great guy her is. We also got to seee Anita Renfroe, a wonderfully funny lady, perform some of her great comedy songs. And we sang some more great music and listened to some other great speakers. We heard Patsy Clairmont, MArilyn Meberg, Thelma Wells, Sandi Patty (who sang for us), and a singing performance by Nicole Nordeman. The conference wound up Friday about 10:00 PM and we arrived back home close to 11:00. Then we met again at 7:15 AM on Saturday morning and headed back to the conference. More of the same bu t lengthier segments. All wonderful and funny.
Definitely worth going to. I hope to be able to go again. From what I understand there was about 12,000 attendees.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
I need meds. I am sure of it. I can not stop getting absolutely frustrated with my family. Rebecca is the worst. Everytime I ask her to do something I get a no or an I do not want to. I try to remain calm and I just can't. I end up screaming at her. And I mean screaming! It is awful, and it is a behavior that she also does which makes matters worse. Problem is I do not even have a doctor here yet. I can not seem to bring myself to call and schedule an appointment. Why? I do not know. I know how badly I need to see one. Not just for my depression but for medical reasons as well. Why is this so hard for me?
On another note, I have been attending a bible study. It is called A Women's Heart, God's Dwelling Place by Beth Moore. I do not know yet what I think of it. This is so new for me. I know I hate missing the morning with my children. I miss them terribly during it. Especially when Zachary does not want to leave me and Rebecca gets crocodile tears begging me to just let us stay home. I also am not really good at understanding the bible. After doing my homework for the week I do not feel like I knew anymore then I did. Then I go to class and they explain what it means (sometimes) and I think wow, I never could have gotten that out of it. It makes me feel frustrated and clueless. I am trying hard to be a better christian and get closer to God. Why? I do not know. Maybe because I see others who have and it looks good. It is hard though being that we did not grow up very religious. Sure, we went to church every Sunday but we never said grace before a meal (unless you count Christmas with the relatives) and we never really talked about God at home. We never talked about praying or anything else. It is so awkward for me to talk religiously. Also, as much as Jim says he is religious he is not open about it either. Yes, we say grace at dinnertime but that is about it. So, I am taking it a week at a time and we will see how it goes. I am sure I will make it through the entire course as that is the type of person I am. One to stick it out. I paid for childcare and such so by golly I am going to do what I said I would do.
And more updates:
Caroline and Elizabeth got glasses. Not covered by insurance so we had to pay $896! Now that we have done that we will have eye insurance starting October 1st. We found out two days after we paid all this money. They do look cute in them. Smarter! :)
Zachary is still meeting with ECI. His speech has improved tremendously over the past 6 months. But he still has a ways to go. He has a little attitude though!
Tomorrow I go to the Women Of Faith Conference. I am looking forward to it. Although I am a bit nervous. Plus I have to get there at 7:30 AM to carpool. I hope it is good for me. I tried to distract Rebecca today by telling her that Daddy would be staying home from work tomrrow to play with her. I thought this would be an exciting thing for her. Instead she asked if I would be here to. When I told her no I had a meeting to go to with other mommy's from church she cried. She looked so incredibly sad. It broke my heart. She asked if she could go with me. I told her no. She said over and over that she wanted to be with me. So, I promised I would see if they had anything I could buy for her there so she would know that she was in my heart. Poor girl. :( She looked so sad.
On another note, I have been attending a bible study. It is called A Women's Heart, God's Dwelling Place by Beth Moore. I do not know yet what I think of it. This is so new for me. I know I hate missing the morning with my children. I miss them terribly during it. Especially when Zachary does not want to leave me and Rebecca gets crocodile tears begging me to just let us stay home. I also am not really good at understanding the bible. After doing my homework for the week I do not feel like I knew anymore then I did. Then I go to class and they explain what it means (sometimes) and I think wow, I never could have gotten that out of it. It makes me feel frustrated and clueless. I am trying hard to be a better christian and get closer to God. Why? I do not know. Maybe because I see others who have and it looks good. It is hard though being that we did not grow up very religious. Sure, we went to church every Sunday but we never said grace before a meal (unless you count Christmas with the relatives) and we never really talked about God at home. We never talked about praying or anything else. It is so awkward for me to talk religiously. Also, as much as Jim says he is religious he is not open about it either. Yes, we say grace at dinnertime but that is about it. So, I am taking it a week at a time and we will see how it goes. I am sure I will make it through the entire course as that is the type of person I am. One to stick it out. I paid for childcare and such so by golly I am going to do what I said I would do.
And more updates:
Caroline and Elizabeth got glasses. Not covered by insurance so we had to pay $896! Now that we have done that we will have eye insurance starting October 1st. We found out two days after we paid all this money. They do look cute in them. Smarter! :)
Zachary is still meeting with ECI. His speech has improved tremendously over the past 6 months. But he still has a ways to go. He has a little attitude though!
Tomorrow I go to the Women Of Faith Conference. I am looking forward to it. Although I am a bit nervous. Plus I have to get there at 7:30 AM to carpool. I hope it is good for me. I tried to distract Rebecca today by telling her that Daddy would be staying home from work tomrrow to play with her. I thought this would be an exciting thing for her. Instead she asked if I would be here to. When I told her no I had a meeting to go to with other mommy's from church she cried. She looked so incredibly sad. It broke my heart. She asked if she could go with me. I told her no. She said over and over that she wanted to be with me. So, I promised I would see if they had anything I could buy for her there so she would know that she was in my heart. Poor girl. :( She looked so sad.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
She did it! and other weekend news
Rebecca finally made it through the reading page she had been stuck on. We finally had school Friday. So I took a little different approach to the page. We did it backwards. And we finally made it. I had to remind her a few times to look at the word she was reading, all of the letters in it instead of seeing the first letter and just saying any word that started with that letter. She was so excited to finally be able to move on. She got to read two new stories. One little short story and another book. So she earns two more stars!
We also worked on States and capitals. We reviewed the ones we have already studied and learned a new one. She loves learning the states. For math she did a few workbook pages that required her to count objects and write how many. Very easy for her but at least required her to practice writing her numbers. She is doing so good and although it requires her to miss her nap as I have found school works so much better while Zachary is napping for the most part, it is nice to have that one on one time with her.
Yesterday (Monday, a holiday) we did an impromptu math activity. It was a pocket chart activity where she had to match up the number, letter word for the number, and objects that equaled that number. We let Zachary find the object part while she did the number and word. I was pleased to see she recognized many of the number words. Maybe it was just lucky guesses but she did so well. I have been wanting to start addition with her and have so many activities running through my mind for that but I did not want to jump ahead and skip all the other stuff. It is so easy to do that with Rebecca because she can grasp so many concepts. She is so eager to learn some of it as well so you hate to continue doing the stuff that she already can do. But I do want to make sure she has a solid foundation before moving on and that means she needs to be able to write all her numbers and read number words.
I love doing school with her and wish I could devote more time to planning it out. Hopefully when the house is more organized I can.
As for this weekend.... It was a long weekend. No school or work on Monday. The girls spent the night at Audrey's on Friday. The two younger ones and Jim and I went to Katy Mills on Saturday. We were hoping to go swimming with our neighbors but decided not to when we woke up and it was rainy and overcast. We had plans to go out to a fancy dinner with friends that night and I really did not have a decent dress to wear so it gave us the opportunity to look at the mall for something and Jim needed to find some black shorts for band reunion. I did find a new dress, actually three! And Jim did get a new pair of shorts. So, it was a successful trip in that regards. We then decided to have lunch at Johnny Rockets at the mall. Both kids had been begging for food. Well, their attitudes changed once we were there. Rebecca kept whining. They both refused to eat so we decided to skip the play area and head home. They both needed to take a nap before our night out anyway.
As for our night out..... Our friend Rick turned 50 on Sunday. His wife gave him a cool present for his birthday. He was a Chef For The Day at a really nice restaurant called Brennan's. He went there in the morning and got to cook along side of the executive chef. He learned all about the different areas of the kitchen and cooked a little of everything. Then he also had to go up to their wine "cellar" and taste test all the wines and choose one for us to have. Then he, his wife, us, and another couple got to eat there. We had a special table right in the kitchen. We were able to see all that was going on in the kitchen and we were able to get up and walk around the kitchen as well to see what they were doing. We had a six course meal. The way they served it each couple had two different items from the menu so we were able to sample more then just what we had for 6 courses! Yum! I was a bit nervous as I am so much a fussy eater. I like plain and simple. But I did good! I made Jim proud!
We started with champagne. I actually like it okay. Then we tried a white wine and then a red wine. Then we had soup. I had Turtle Soup and Jim had gazpacho. I LOVED the turtle soup. It was delicious. The gazpacho was a tomato and cucumber with some scallops on the center. I liked it okay but was not a fan of cold soup. Needless to say I did not share much of my turtle soup with Jim! Then came the salad portion. I got some type of shrimp with some kind of sauce. (Do not expect real names here as I have no clue and do not remember.) I quickly traded Jim (no shrimp for me) and took his greens with grape tomatoes. Then we moved on to a seafood dish. I got groupie ( I had never had this before, and it was actually not too bad) with crab meat and mushrooms in some type of sauce. Jim got a crab cake with special green stuff on top. The crab cake was good as well. After the fish we had a meat dish. I got lamb with a special corn muffin and some type of cooked greens (can't remember). It was very good! Jim got veal and some delicious potatoes with some really good sauce on them. After the meat we had a cheese plate. We were given a wedge of three different cheeses with three slices of bread and some honey with the honey comb in the middle of it all. The honeycomb was to chew on to cleanse your pallet between cheeses. The first cheese was a blue cheese, a very strong blue cheese. It was okay. A little too strong for me. The second was a creme bere (sp) which was sooo rich. It was good but actually got too sweet after a few bites. The third I can not remember what it was but it was my favorite. It was a hard cheese. After that we had dessert. And all I can say is WOW!!! We had 11 different desserts to try. They were fabulous!
It was such a great night. good friends, great food. We all drove in one car too which was nice. All the kids were at one house and Caroline, Elizabeth, and Audrey babysat for us. They had pizza! It was a wonderful and fun experience!
Back to the long weekend....
Sunday was church and HEB. Then I called my mother to wish her a happy birthday! I still need to send her her gift. Sunday night Jim made jambalaya for dinner and the girls went out to a friends house again. Monday, we did a little yard work while the kids played outside with Morgan. Then we went swimming with our neighbors. We had to come home when it started thundering. Rebeca and Morgan watched a movie at our house while I chatted with the neighbors and watched the storm go through. I love that particular neighbor. Their whole family is great!!! Then that evening we met up with the Brimberry's for dinner at Skeeters. We had a good time with them as well! So, we had a good weekend filled with friends!
Now back to unpacking the house!!
We also worked on States and capitals. We reviewed the ones we have already studied and learned a new one. She loves learning the states. For math she did a few workbook pages that required her to count objects and write how many. Very easy for her but at least required her to practice writing her numbers. She is doing so good and although it requires her to miss her nap as I have found school works so much better while Zachary is napping for the most part, it is nice to have that one on one time with her.
Yesterday (Monday, a holiday) we did an impromptu math activity. It was a pocket chart activity where she had to match up the number, letter word for the number, and objects that equaled that number. We let Zachary find the object part while she did the number and word. I was pleased to see she recognized many of the number words. Maybe it was just lucky guesses but she did so well. I have been wanting to start addition with her and have so many activities running through my mind for that but I did not want to jump ahead and skip all the other stuff. It is so easy to do that with Rebecca because she can grasp so many concepts. She is so eager to learn some of it as well so you hate to continue doing the stuff that she already can do. But I do want to make sure she has a solid foundation before moving on and that means she needs to be able to write all her numbers and read number words.
I love doing school with her and wish I could devote more time to planning it out. Hopefully when the house is more organized I can.
As for this weekend.... It was a long weekend. No school or work on Monday. The girls spent the night at Audrey's on Friday. The two younger ones and Jim and I went to Katy Mills on Saturday. We were hoping to go swimming with our neighbors but decided not to when we woke up and it was rainy and overcast. We had plans to go out to a fancy dinner with friends that night and I really did not have a decent dress to wear so it gave us the opportunity to look at the mall for something and Jim needed to find some black shorts for band reunion. I did find a new dress, actually three! And Jim did get a new pair of shorts. So, it was a successful trip in that regards. We then decided to have lunch at Johnny Rockets at the mall. Both kids had been begging for food. Well, their attitudes changed once we were there. Rebecca kept whining. They both refused to eat so we decided to skip the play area and head home. They both needed to take a nap before our night out anyway.
As for our night out..... Our friend Rick turned 50 on Sunday. His wife gave him a cool present for his birthday. He was a Chef For The Day at a really nice restaurant called Brennan's. He went there in the morning and got to cook along side of the executive chef. He learned all about the different areas of the kitchen and cooked a little of everything. Then he also had to go up to their wine "cellar" and taste test all the wines and choose one for us to have. Then he, his wife, us, and another couple got to eat there. We had a special table right in the kitchen. We were able to see all that was going on in the kitchen and we were able to get up and walk around the kitchen as well to see what they were doing. We had a six course meal. The way they served it each couple had two different items from the menu so we were able to sample more then just what we had for 6 courses! Yum! I was a bit nervous as I am so much a fussy eater. I like plain and simple. But I did good! I made Jim proud!
We started with champagne. I actually like it okay. Then we tried a white wine and then a red wine. Then we had soup. I had Turtle Soup and Jim had gazpacho. I LOVED the turtle soup. It was delicious. The gazpacho was a tomato and cucumber with some scallops on the center. I liked it okay but was not a fan of cold soup. Needless to say I did not share much of my turtle soup with Jim! Then came the salad portion. I got some type of shrimp with some kind of sauce. (Do not expect real names here as I have no clue and do not remember.) I quickly traded Jim (no shrimp for me) and took his greens with grape tomatoes. Then we moved on to a seafood dish. I got groupie ( I had never had this before, and it was actually not too bad) with crab meat and mushrooms in some type of sauce. Jim got a crab cake with special green stuff on top. The crab cake was good as well. After the fish we had a meat dish. I got lamb with a special corn muffin and some type of cooked greens (can't remember). It was very good! Jim got veal and some delicious potatoes with some really good sauce on them. After the meat we had a cheese plate. We were given a wedge of three different cheeses with three slices of bread and some honey with the honey comb in the middle of it all. The honeycomb was to chew on to cleanse your pallet between cheeses. The first cheese was a blue cheese, a very strong blue cheese. It was okay. A little too strong for me. The second was a creme bere (sp) which was sooo rich. It was good but actually got too sweet after a few bites. The third I can not remember what it was but it was my favorite. It was a hard cheese. After that we had dessert. And all I can say is WOW!!! We had 11 different desserts to try. They were fabulous!
It was such a great night. good friends, great food. We all drove in one car too which was nice. All the kids were at one house and Caroline, Elizabeth, and Audrey babysat for us. They had pizza! It was a wonderful and fun experience!
Back to the long weekend....
Sunday was church and HEB. Then I called my mother to wish her a happy birthday! I still need to send her her gift. Sunday night Jim made jambalaya for dinner and the girls went out to a friends house again. Monday, we did a little yard work while the kids played outside with Morgan. Then we went swimming with our neighbors. We had to come home when it started thundering. Rebeca and Morgan watched a movie at our house while I chatted with the neighbors and watched the storm go through. I love that particular neighbor. Their whole family is great!!! Then that evening we met up with the Brimberry's for dinner at Skeeters. We had a good time with them as well! So, we had a good weekend filled with friends!
Now back to unpacking the house!!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Life
So much is going on these days. Seems like my calendar stays so full. I have a house that desperately needs organizing and unpacking and I just can't seem to get motivated to get it done. It is a lot of work to do by myself and then I feel like I am neglecting my kids in the process.
I have so many friends I want to see and it seems there is not time to see them all. I also have neglected schooling Rebecca lately. This is one of the reasons I m fearful to homeschool her. I am afraid I will put it off in lieu of other things. We were doing so good for quite a while, really getting into a routine. Rebecca was enjoying it and progressing nicely. Then we got stuck on a reading page that we have yet to get through. She has such a hard time staying focused though. I mean overly hard time. It makes it hard some days.
I am excited though as at the end of the month I will be going to the Women of Faith Conference. I am going with a group of ladies from church. I understand it to be an amazing experience. If all goes well I will be going to the pre-conference as well. Sheila Walsh will be speaking at the pre-conference. We read one of her books for book club this summer. It was really good.
I have so many friends I want to see and it seems there is not time to see them all. I also have neglected schooling Rebecca lately. This is one of the reasons I m fearful to homeschool her. I am afraid I will put it off in lieu of other things. We were doing so good for quite a while, really getting into a routine. Rebecca was enjoying it and progressing nicely. Then we got stuck on a reading page that we have yet to get through. She has such a hard time staying focused though. I mean overly hard time. It makes it hard some days.
I am excited though as at the end of the month I will be going to the Women of Faith Conference. I am going with a group of ladies from church. I understand it to be an amazing experience. If all goes well I will be going to the pre-conference as well. Sheila Walsh will be speaking at the pre-conference. We read one of her books for book club this summer. It was really good.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
A little of everything
Well, we are in our new home. At least this is where we are staying. We have so much to do to get it to where I want it. I want to finally live in a house that has places for things. A house I am not embarrassed to have people over, I hope that time comes soon. Of course I have a lot of training to do as far as getting others who live here to do their part. We all need to pitch in if we are going to have a nice place to live.
So far we have met some really nice new neighbors. Rebecca has a friend, Morgan, who comes over to get Rebecca to play outside with her frequently. It is so nice. I have decided to be block captain. I hope I can do it well. I need to get my first introduction flyer out and put together something about National Night out.
Rebecca has developed quite the attitude and smart mouth. I am not sure how to get her to stop. I hope it is just a short lived phase. My patience can wear thin with her. I sometimes wonder what happened to my sweet little girl who always listened and did the right thing. The one who behaved no matter where you were. We have had to develop a new shopping rule to get things under control in public. If either child is not in a shopping cart or stroller then they must be holding a hand at all times. No exceptions. I am hoping this will help them to learn to behave nicely in stores so I can go out to stores again without getting dirty looks when my child is screaming and crying or I am constantly nagging them to stop something.
Okay, that is it for now. I need to go finish getting ready for swim lessons today. I hope we start having some nicer weather sometime so Rebecca can start practicing and maybe learn faster. I feel like she is at a bit of a standstill.
So far we have met some really nice new neighbors. Rebecca has a friend, Morgan, who comes over to get Rebecca to play outside with her frequently. It is so nice. I have decided to be block captain. I hope I can do it well. I need to get my first introduction flyer out and put together something about National Night out.
Rebecca has developed quite the attitude and smart mouth. I am not sure how to get her to stop. I hope it is just a short lived phase. My patience can wear thin with her. I sometimes wonder what happened to my sweet little girl who always listened and did the right thing. The one who behaved no matter where you were. We have had to develop a new shopping rule to get things under control in public. If either child is not in a shopping cart or stroller then they must be holding a hand at all times. No exceptions. I am hoping this will help them to learn to behave nicely in stores so I can go out to stores again without getting dirty looks when my child is screaming and crying or I am constantly nagging them to stop something.
Okay, that is it for now. I need to go finish getting ready for swim lessons today. I hope we start having some nicer weather sometime so Rebecca can start practicing and maybe learn faster. I feel like she is at a bit of a standstill.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Religion
For some reason I can not sleep tonight. Thoughts of baptism are running through my head. Not sure exactly why. Maybe God is trying to tell me something. We went to a baptism this weekend. A young boy and an older woman were baptized. The woman was someone who I have become somewhat friendly with at church. She put together a book club I joined. I am enjoying it so much. It is a bit therapeutic for me I suppose. I was reading our book club book before bed tonight. Maybe that was the problem. I usually read that book during the day and then read a chosen library book before going to sleep. But I knew we would be so busy tomorrow and I have book club tomorrow night so I wanted to make sure I got it all read. I finally started falling asleep towards the end of chapter nine. I had read chapter 8 and need to read through chapter 10. Anyway, I put the book down after trying to get through the end of the chapter without any luck. I shut off my light and got comfortable in bed. That is when my mind started working overtime. I was too hot and had too many thoughts. Do I want to be baptized into the baptist church? I have always believed that I never would. I was baptized Catholic as an infant. I can certainly understand the argument that it was not my choice. However, I have always argued back that I then made my confirmation when I was in 10th grade. This is certainly old enough to make the choice to accept God. But did I really make that choice? Or has that just been a good solid argument for avoiding a dunking? Well, in a way I was also forced to do that. There would have been no telling my mother that I was choosing not to go through with it or even that I did not want to attend CCD. However, when I think back to that year, I really enjoyed CCD. Sure as a younger child I did not like it but with Sergeant Little who could!? But I do remember that final year of going through CCD class with Father Lyons. I did enjoy it and I even more enjoyed attending mass when I was able to become a Eucharistic Minister and a lector. It felt good to me! I still miss doing that very much. However, I have been enjoying the Baptist church lately. I sometimes miss the formality of the Catholic church and the prayers but I also love the music in the Baptist church. We have made so many friends and met so many wonderful caring people at Trinity. I hate to think of missing church. I have not even enjoyed watching the nursery because I miss church. But I wonder how I know if I am ready to be baptized? I have been more involved at this church then any other church and I am enjoying it. Is that what makes me want to be baptized? The peer pressure in a way of not being a full member and always second guessing whether I am supposed to be helping out in Rebecca's Sunday School class or even vacation bible school? Or am I really ready to accept the Lord in a Baptist way by being baptized? Does it or will it make a difference in my future? Will God love me more for publicly proclaiming my belief in him? Or will I have the same fate regardless? Jim has mentioned a few times lately that he would love to see me be baptized. He used to always say it really did not matter to him one way or the other. Why all of a sudden is it of interest to him? Is it the same reasons as I said above? Is he embarrassed that I have not accepted the Lord in the way that Baptists do? Is it to make sure I do not wake up one day and say I want to leave the church to go back to a Catholic one? I have a hard time discussing religion with him. Not sure why. And when I ask him why he would like me to get baptized he does not really have an answer.
I guess in some way i almost feel bad for changing religions. ow can I abandon the faith I was raised in? Is it right to do so? Is Baptist the right religion for me? Didn't Episcopal do what I need as well? Although I never had the friends I have now at church but it also was the church the ex used to go to as well. How does one decide to change religions or to even be baptized?
I feel like I have so much more learning to do. Do I need to learn all I do not know before I decide to be baptized? How does one really pray? How do I ask God for guidance? How do I know what his answer is when I do ask? I guess in many ways I am trying so desperately to become a more religious person. Not a freaky religious but one who is more comfortable with who I am in a religious sense. One who is not so reluctant to express my religious views. One who can turn to God at any given time and know exactly what He wants me to do. One who knows how to even do that correctly? Is there even a correct way to do that? Or does it vary from person to person with no right or wrong way?
Well, I guess I need to try again to go get some rest. We have a big day tomorrow! And I still have a lot of soul searching to do.
I guess in some way i almost feel bad for changing religions. ow can I abandon the faith I was raised in? Is it right to do so? Is Baptist the right religion for me? Didn't Episcopal do what I need as well? Although I never had the friends I have now at church but it also was the church the ex used to go to as well. How does one decide to change religions or to even be baptized?
I feel like I have so much more learning to do. Do I need to learn all I do not know before I decide to be baptized? How does one really pray? How do I ask God for guidance? How do I know what his answer is when I do ask? I guess in many ways I am trying so desperately to become a more religious person. Not a freaky religious but one who is more comfortable with who I am in a religious sense. One who is not so reluctant to express my religious views. One who can turn to God at any given time and know exactly what He wants me to do. One who knows how to even do that correctly? Is there even a correct way to do that? Or does it vary from person to person with no right or wrong way?
Well, I guess I need to try again to go get some rest. We have a big day tomorrow! And I still have a lot of soul searching to do.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Here We Are
Well, here we are. The last night sleeping in our lease house. We were supposed to close on our new house this afternoon but it did not happen. I was highly disappointed as I had hoped to get a head start on painting Rebecca's bedroom. Then we at least had hoped to close in the morning tomorrow to at least have a full day of the new house but that is not happening either. We are set to close tomorrow afternoon. I can not wait. I am so excited to have anew home. I love everything about it. Well, except the master bedroom area. And as usual I would love a bigger yard. But I can not complain. The yard is bigger then most and we should be able to fit a decent pool and still have some play area for the little kids.
I am just so ready to be in our new home. I am thrilled to be out from under the rules of a landlord. I am so excited to be able to unpack and spread out and live how we want. I really am motivated to get everything in order. I want everything to have a place. I want to be able to have friends over both our adult friends and friends of all the kids. I do not want to have to always make excuses for the state of our house or avoid people coming over.
Anyway, I can not wait to be in our new home! I love the finishes we have chosen. I think they ended up coming together nicely. It is so hard to tell at the design center with those small samples. But I love it!
I am so happy we have finally made it to this point. We have one last hurdle to get over and that is selling the home in Rowlett. After that I feel like we can fully move forward with our life. I feel like our life has been in limbo for two years. The first being spent commuting to Baton Rouge and the second living in this lease house with a terrible landlord and unpacked boxes. I am just so happy. I am even happier to know we will have a bit of money to afford some new furniture and such for the new house. We desperately need some. And I am hoping it will help us to unpack and be more organized if we can afford some simple things to get more organized.
Yay! I am so excited. I hope this will help Rebecca to settle down and feel more at ease. Maybe make her tantrums a little less frequent.
Maybe we will be a happier family!
I am just so ready to be in our new home. I am thrilled to be out from under the rules of a landlord. I am so excited to be able to unpack and spread out and live how we want. I really am motivated to get everything in order. I want everything to have a place. I want to be able to have friends over both our adult friends and friends of all the kids. I do not want to have to always make excuses for the state of our house or avoid people coming over.
Anyway, I can not wait to be in our new home! I love the finishes we have chosen. I think they ended up coming together nicely. It is so hard to tell at the design center with those small samples. But I love it!
I am so happy we have finally made it to this point. We have one last hurdle to get over and that is selling the home in Rowlett. After that I feel like we can fully move forward with our life. I feel like our life has been in limbo for two years. The first being spent commuting to Baton Rouge and the second living in this lease house with a terrible landlord and unpacked boxes. I am just so happy. I am even happier to know we will have a bit of money to afford some new furniture and such for the new house. We desperately need some. And I am hoping it will help us to unpack and be more organized if we can afford some simple things to get more organized.
Yay! I am so excited. I hope this will help Rebecca to settle down and feel more at ease. Maybe make her tantrums a little less frequent.
Maybe we will be a happier family!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Wow! What A difference a Few Years Can Make!
I refound this blog I started! I can not believe the last post was a trip to Baton Rouge to make a possible move there. What a difference a couple years can make. We did end up spending a year in Baton Rouge. We traveled back and forth between there and Rowlett. That was hard especially for my newborn and 2 year old. After almost a year doing that the offer came again to go to Houston. Things were not progressing with selling the house in Rowlett and Mapp was not willing to help out any. So, we backed out of a contract we had on a house in Denham Springs and came over to Houston for a weekend to look around. We spent a day in Tomball and a day in Katy. We had that one and only weekend to decide our fate. The week or so before all this the girls mother called and said make an offer and we could have the girls. So, our whole life was about to turn upside down. Well, we took the job in Houston and moved here within two weeks of that trip. We got the girls enrolled in school. My poor baby boy had to spend his first birthday moving. We moved everything from Baton Rouge. Then drove to Dallas and had movers move everyhting from there. Then drove back to Houston. We chose to live in Katy. We ended up in a pretty good house with the landlord from HE** ! We were so anxious to get out of here. We decided to have a house built. It is now nearing completion! Yay! I m so excited. I would love a bigger yard but the house is great! Well, except the master area.
Oh well, it is getting late. I'll do more updating another time.
Oh well, it is getting late. I'll do more updating another time.
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